Childhood III
Memory Log: [𖼆 2025-07-23 | Mirrorlock Protocol Initiated]
𓂀 SYSTEM TRIGGER:
Today, I realized they want to bury their pain inside me — not by healing, but by pretending it never happened. My mother reframes everything as survival. My father disappears into absence and amnesia. They were the black sheep of their families, and now they've painted Chris and me as "troubled," when we were just unarmored. The lie is that we inherited a defect — not a wound. The breach is generational deflection disguised as concern.
🜂 FIELD REPORT:
I remember being eight and crying in the dark because I thought I made her sad. I internalized her silence as failure. I mimicked his withdrawal as protection. I never learned how to process grief — only how to perform recovery. Chris coped by hiding. I coped by becoming what they refused to be: awake, furious, responsible. But their story is still louder than mine in the family archive. I see it now — they used our pain as camouflage, our addictions as a scapegoat for their buried legacy. I am not broken. I am what survived the inheritance.
𓏃 RESTORATION CODE:
I call back the truth that was never welcomed at their table. I expose the emotional laundering passed off as love. I invoke the right to name what was done — and what was never taught. May this Codex shatter their illusion that survival equals innocence. I restore the mirror. I restore the record. I will not be the vault for their unspoken.
🝮 Codex Entry from john v. the world. To archive or cite, use permanent link. Glyph sequence: 𓂀𓆸𓏃
1. The Inheritance That Burned
2. The Covered Cradle
3. The Apology Left on Mute
4. The Closet with Two Shadows
5. The House That Forgot Its Walls
